by Kathryn Parris
Broken lives relationships world
I’m too sad
tired
worn
discouraged
Too much of this world
Not enough of you
Trying to control what can’t be controlled
Damaging
relationships
health
future
I turn from you and fill my head with comfort ease busy
Don’t think, don’t ponder, Keep the “I’m ok”s flowing,
No prayer just resentful questions
Why bother anyway
But you stop me, you stop the world
Stop
hugging a friend
hanging out with family
running from YOU
Staring at mortality
tomorrow?
next week?
next month?
Someone asks “Are you afraid to die?”
Brick wall
Screeching halt
Trapped
Can’t hide anymore
I look up tears flowing Where are you God? How long will you hide your face? It’s a mess down here. I’m a mess down here. I’m weak, fearful, doubting, sinful. And YOU say, I see it too. I’m sad too. There’s a war raging but I will win. There are battles and there will be casualties…. But I never leave you on your own. Even alone in a pandemic I hold you in a hospital bed in your house in your fear, doubt and weakness when you don’t “feel” me. I AM 10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. 11 Behold, all who are incensed against you shall be put to shame and confounded; those who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall perish. 12 You shall seek those who contend with you, but you shall not find them; those who war against you shall be as nothing at all. 13 For I, the LORD your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.” Isaiah 41:10-13